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she said love it all, love it all, love it all [Mar. 14th, 2008|09:41 pm]
[Current Mood |chipperchipper]
[Current Music |the kooks!]

so, today was GORGEOUS! i'm listening to the new kooks cd and it feels like spring. pretty much just like last year hahaha. kinda weird. 

except, this time last year wasn't such a good time for me. i can't say that was entirely a bad thing, though. this time last year i pretty much became a whole different person. all of the stupid things going on made me reevaluate everything and everyone. i was about to crack when i found things like meditation and my walks <3. i still remember the day i broke down. i had no idea what to do. so, i walked out the door... and kept walking. i didn't know where i was going, but i didn't care. this sounds so corny, but everything changed for me then. i realized that the problems i had were so teeny tiny and the world around me was so beautiful. and that all the time i spent NOT outside staring at it was a complete waste of time. every feeling of frustration, anger, disappointment, sadness... everything was wiped away with the wind. and i stopped caring about silly silly things that used to drive me crazy. i was prepared to accept those who wanted me in their lives, and let go of those who didn't. i can't really describe the peace i felt. and i've tried to many times, as those who read my journal during that time can attest. =P 

i miss my bridge. i miss walking under the branches and over the mud. i'm so glad spring is here again. it was this time last year that i really started to care about this planet. yeah, we have to be environmentally conscious for all sorts of practical reasons, but i think the most important reasons are the ones attributed to nature's spiritual value. can you imagine how much more hippie dippie i'd sound if i actually lived somewhere where nature really exists... like in large spaces haha.

anyway, i think that's all folks. have a good night.

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(no subject) [Mar. 1st, 2008|02:11 pm]
home <3333
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talking in code [Feb. 23rd, 2008|03:06 am]
[Current Music |margot & the nuclear so and so's]


this is an open invitation for anybody to come with me to see RADIOHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




not only radiohead, but girl talk, css, andrew bird, kings of leon, the new pornographers, cat power, black kids, the go! team, and MORE. right in good ol' joisey!  i'm about to have a heart attack.  yes, it's $89 but it's my birthday present... and i won't be seeing radiohead on their own tour. but i think this is better.

i honestly can't believe i'll be seeing my favorite band perform right in front of me. i can't even put into words what these guys and their music mean to me. i can't... i just can't. it's everything. and this day in august will be the best day of my life. fo sho! maybe i shouldn't get too excited before i actually buy the ticket XD but gah! i can't help it.

so if you wanna shell out the bucks for one amazing festival, come with me pwease!  if only margot & the nuclear so and so's were gonna be there too. i'm totally obsessed with their cd lately! check it, yo!

AND i'll be home next thursday for spring break! i'm so stoked. it'll be 4 weeks since i've been home. i miss everybody so much =(

anybody have a last.fm account?  i need more friends to spy on and steal music ideas from =)  i am currently in an epic struggle to boost mine and katie's compatibility. we're better than medium! what is that?!  hahaha joinnnn!

ummm what else? my classes, my job, and my newspaper reporting assignments are keeping my semi-busy lately. i still have plenty of nap time though =) and i'm still in a great mood. although they do make it IMPOSSIBLE not to fall on your ass walking to class with the stairs down this mountain covered in ice!  it's pretty much a death trap but i've survived so far! go me.

peace out.

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i am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together [Feb. 17th, 2008|08:14 pm]
[Current Mood |peacefulpeaceful]
[Current Music |the beatles / harrison]

we were talking about the space between us all, 
and the people who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion, 
never glimse the truth, then it's far too late when they pass away. 

we were talking about the love we all could share, 
when we find it to try our best to hold it there, 
with our love, with our love, we could save the world, if they only knew, 
try to realize it's all within yourself, no one else can make you change,
and to see you're really only very small and life flows on within you and without you. 

we were talking about the love that's gone so cold, 
and the people who gain the world and lose their soul, 
they don't know, they can't see, 
are you one of them?

when you've seen beyond yourself then you may find peace of mind is waiting there, 
and the time will come when you see we are all one and life flows on within you and without you.

i was going down. thinking negative thoughts. feeling negative feelings. losing track of myself and what i value as important. i let doubt and (self) hatred seep into my life. i lost my centers:  music & meditation & positive energy. this song brought me back. brought me back to the self of 6 months ago. it's good to be back.
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(no subject) [Jan. 9th, 2008|03:22 pm]
sure, John A. Hobson dies, but he dies knowing. he dies not caring. he dies free. he dies ALIVE.  but i bet the stars seemed so close at the end... at the end...
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(no subject) [Nov. 22nd, 2007|01:34 am]
weird fishes. all i need. reckoner. videotape. weird fishes. all i need. reckoner. videotape.
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(no subject) [Sep. 14th, 2007|12:04 am]
dude i bought cheeze-its yesterday. YAY!
and i just finished my first big english essay that i decided to write on little miss sunshine =)
and tomorrow is friday. oh yes oh yes!
and i might start playing squash... yeah, squash. who plays squash? bahahah
oh boy! and a cute guy named ryan just came into my room for some quarters... random?
did i mention i have cheeeeeze-its?!?!
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(no subject) [Jul. 29th, 2007|12:00 am]
[Current Music |the fratellis]

okey dokey shmokey update time.

let me just start off saying that this was my first saturday in many many months that i did not have to get up at 8 for work and it felt so fucking good. wow. i had no idea how much i missed my saturdays.

so work is done. lona gave me a 50 dollar gift card, and i was really shocked. turns out she really liked me. i must admit, i will miss some of those crazy west mariners. i will NOT however miss having a job. fuck the money. hahaha! i think it was a good experience though. a good slap of reality, of the real world. where you gotta do things you don't wanna do. i'm glad i had a job.

PLUS it paid for my disgusting cd and book buying problem. it's getting out of control, seriously. i bought 3 cds today alone.

and ummm... i think i'm gonna pass on a certain opportunity. i'm going to lehigh in like 3 weeks, i really don't wanna start that. so... yeah. no thanks.

what else? oh! my mom is re-doing her room and the kitchen and it's impossible to find space to walk in my house anymore. there is a HUGE mound of ALL of my mom's clothes on my bed. her bed is in the living room. we both sleep there, cause i still don't have air conditioning. it's crazy here. a lot of lifting, since my brother can't do it with his back issues.

went to see the simpsons movie with sharon yesterday. it was hilarious! loved it.

i've been feeling really good lately. better than i've felt in a while. sickeningly happy dee is back. my mom told me today that i smile in my sleep.

oh! i finished harry potter a couple days ago. had a meet-up with rebecca and mar to talk about it. we are such DORKS! but wow, best book ever. sarah, i still need to spazz out with you in person. don't think you're getting away that easy!

guitar hero is the best game ever. i can't play anything except easy level. but duuuude i love it.

i just keep praying that time will stop. and i'll have more moments with them. i don't really know what to do.

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(no subject) [Jul. 15th, 2007|12:31 am]
so you know how facebook always shows you like 6 random sayreville high friends on the left of your profile? well, for the first time, i thought of them as "kids i used to go to school with."

and my heart broke a little bit, in all honesty.
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(no subject) [Jul. 14th, 2007|12:35 am]

 8 Minute Meditation: Quiet Your Mind. Change Your Life. 

apparently this is accessible, which i need because, let's face it, i'm lacking in the common sense department. and i know, even on a long work day, i can definitely sacrifice 8 minutes of my life. i'm excited =D i think meditation will be good for me. this just might become my new addiction.

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