|she said love it all, love it all, love it all
||[Mar. 14th, 2008|09:41 pm]
so, today was GORGEOUS! i'm listening to the new kooks cd and it feels like spring. pretty much just like last year hahaha. kinda weird.
except, this time last year wasn't such a good time for me. i can't say that was entirely a bad thing, though. this time last year i pretty much became a whole different person. all of the stupid things going on made me reevaluate everything and everyone. i was about to crack when i found things like meditation and my walks <3. i still remember the day i broke down. i had no idea what to do. so, i walked out the door... and kept walking. i didn't know where i was going, but i didn't care. this sounds so corny, but everything changed for me then. i realized that the problems i had were so teeny tiny and the world around me was so beautiful. and that all the time i spent NOT outside staring at it was a complete waste of time. every feeling of frustration, anger, disappointment, sadness... everything was wiped away with the wind. and i stopped caring about silly silly things that used to drive me crazy. i was prepared to accept those who wanted me in their lives, and let go of those who didn't. i can't really describe the peace i felt. and i've tried to many times, as those who read my journal during that time can attest. =P
i miss my bridge. i miss walking under the branches and over the mud. i'm so glad spring is here again. it was this time last year that i really started to care about this planet. yeah, we have to be environmentally conscious for all sorts of practical reasons, but i think the most important reasons are the ones attributed to nature's spiritual value. can you imagine how much more hippie dippie i'd sound if i actually lived somewhere where nature really exists... like in large spaces haha.
anyway, i think that's all folks. have a good night.